Friday, October 24, 2008

2008 1st Sem Finals...

Here we go...final year in UM (hopefully...I seriously do not want to extend my semester). If everything is fine...I will be graduating next year as BSc Applied Chemistry. Wonder how many chemicals have I took into my body for the past three years?? Enough to shorten my life by a few years I think...

Today is last day of class. Next week is study break...but I still have to do my lab report. Worst off, the report got problems. The results I get from NMR is totally incomprehensible, my GPC is like...two samples missing. I am so dead. But more than that, I am so fed up. I would rather focus on my finals rather than my report. Frankly speaking, I am not going to pay attention to it more than my revisions because I am planning to hit a certain CGPA this time. Whatever else is secondary.

Nowadays took whatever time I have free...to practice my clarinet. We have lotsa new songs... Four more of Teresa Teng medley, Phantom of the Opera, Sound of Music (again!), later will have Les Miserables, West Side Story, Mary Poppins...all kinds of musicals!!! Very excited!!! I love music and the power within it to give hope and courage to people. I am back to square one... always face technical problems every time. Last time it's embouchure wrong, then tonguing not correct...now I can't play my high notes. Hmm..my solo piece is going to go down the drain if I can't fix this matter by end of this year...

After this year's September concert, I have said that I will fight on with my life. In studies, in kosenrufu, in my own human revolution, in music. Obstacles are everywhere, things are not easy. But I know the final victory is awaiting. I always win in concerts...every single concerts I performed in is very very precious...because I truly challenged. Now should be no difference.

Last few years, the SGM Young Women Division Day has the wild flowers as their theme. This guidance from Ikeda Sensei seem to fit it well...

"Why doesn't constant trampling defeat the dandelion?? The key to its strength is its long and sturdy root, which extends deep into the earth. The same principle applies to people. True victors in life are those who, enduring repeated challenges and setbacks, have sent the roots of their being to such a depth that nothing can shake them!!"

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