A long time abandoned blog. Hahaha. I guessed I am a more frequent user of Facebook notes. Find it easier to just...well, type and post hahaha.
Teaching tuition temporarily as I await fate to fall upon me in another say...a month and a half time. A bit worried really...I wanted to go, but it seems there will be plenty of problems coming along to stop me, or to trouble me if I did get the offer. Financial will be one of them, probably the biggest headache of all, and health, the other. Part of me says I am not too sure if my mental health can live up to being so far away from many of my sources of support...
But truly, I was glad to be given a chance to apply. Even to apply, there is a need of countless good fortune and shoten zenjin. If it wasn't for Ikeda Sensei establishing it nearly 40 years ago, if it wasn't for my seniors and comrades in Japan going around helping me out, if it wasn't for the guarantor who sent in all my forms and monies, when he never even met me before...I won't even have a chance to send in the application. Thank you all...
I know what I wanted and why I choose such a course which many would think weird or even unsuitable. Not surprising, as people now only think of courses, degrees and such only in terms of how much money they can generate and how high up the corporate ladder can they bring you. Too bad, I am not such a money person. Satisfaction matters more to me, a sense of purpose matters more to me, doing something that can contribute to world peace like what my Mentor is doing, is my dream too.
So...I will chase after it. I hope I will make it...
